Ahh here we are, six months postpartum! My maternity leave is half over and it's scary to think just how fast the last half will actually go. I wanted to write a little bit about how I'm doing since a LOT has changed since my one month post partum post (you can read that here if you are interested!)
The first couple months were hard and they were also a blur. I wish I wrote more about it because you're in survival mode pretty much, learning everything for the first time and when time passes you forget pretty much everything. She is a completely different baby now which is understandable, she has figured out a little more about the world and about who we are, her features have changed so much, and overall her personality is just shinning through. She is currently going bananas in her exersaucer which has given me a few extra minutes to talk a little bit about myself and how I've been feeling now that it has been half a year.
I talked a little bit about the baby blues in my one month update, and part of me was worried it would stem into something more but thankfully it went away after about 2 weeks. That was hard and to be honest it is one of the things that really deter me from having another baby down the road. I had an amazing support system that helped me daily, helping me through my emotions and I spent so much time trying to dismiss how I was feeling that I never took a moment to accept the fact that yes I gave birth to a human so my hormones naturally would be all over the place. I think if I accepted my feelings things would have turned out better. Now my emotions are a lot better, I enjoy being a mom and I enjoy my life with her. There are definitely days where I have a good cry with my coffee as she naps, but I take those days as they come.
I have fully healed and have been healed since my check up at is it 6 or 8 weeks? One of those. I also have my cycle back and have had it since November. For someone who never had a regular cycle I am shocked that it has come every month on time. One thing that has been a real struggle is weight loss, I gained about 50lbs during my pregnancy and have only lost about 10lbs of that. It has been the hardest for me to accept, and I have been making more of an effort to eat better and also get out more now that the weather is a bit nicer. I knew it would be tricky to lose that weight but I didn't think it would be this hard. So I keep trucking on and I have made it a goal of mine to really focus on it now and as the weather gets warmer to be active with Everly. My weight has always fluctuated, but this is the heaviest I have ever been and I hate it.
I also wrote about having side effects from the epidural, that stopped a couple weeks after I wrote about it and I'm so happy it did! I can still feel the odd stiffness in my back, but the pain has completely gone.
It has been a crazy 6 months, and it has been life changing seeing Everly experience everything like first holidays. She is an amazing little girl, next week I will be writing about her 6 month update and get a little more in depth about what she's learning and the milestones she has. She has made me into a different person, I am more accepting and patient, but I also realized I have no time for people who do not make the time for me - which unfortunately has led to lost friendships but that's life.
I cannot wait until the summer time when we can go on more adventures and not be house bound for most of the week. There will also be her first birthday at the end of the summer as well which is nuts to think about! This will probably be the last "post partum" type update I will do, I might do one at a year but in terms of after baby and recovering I have pretty much done all of that, it is just a matter of getting myself back into the shape I was in before!
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