I want to start by saying that looking back at this year I'm not really sure where it even went! Time is such a thief, and I can't believe that 2018 will be here this coming Monday and that I have been writing pieces of my life on this blog going on four years! Sometimes I am more active than others, but I love looking back and seeing where I was at during my marriage. Before I started writing this entry I went back and read my previous year in review posts and I couldn't help but smile during it all.
Sometimes it doesn't feel like we are progressing and that we are just staying in the same spot, but the good thing about documenting pieces of your life is that you are able to look back and see you were moving in a direction and things were changing even if it didn't seem like it at the time.
I really wanted to take the time to think about where I see myself this time next year, I have always been a goal oriented person, and I make goals for myself throughout not just for New Years. However, if I'm thinking about a bigger picture than New Years felt like the right time to really reflect and prepare myself to make changes for what is to come.
Last year I didn't really write about what I wanted to do and achieve, I mostly just reflected on the good things that happened and vowed to myself to be more present throughout my life. At that time I was really not thinking about myself and what I wanted, I was still a new mom and every moment of my day depended on Everly. I still live my days for my daughter don't get me wrong, but now that she is older and more independent I think I need to start looking after myself a bit more and figuring out what I would really like to do.
1. Hobby wise one thing I have always wanted to learn but never took the time was knitting (it is no secret I'm an 80 year old woman). This is something that I want to learn this year for sure, I want to take a class and really take the time to learn this skill. I was able to teach myself crochet this year and even though I haven't been able to do anything crazy, I have been able to relax and unwind with a crochet hook and some yarn.
2. I really want to focus more on my career and my workplace. Now that I have been back from maternity leave for almost five months now I really would like to explore more of the skills and techniques used in my day to day job, and just overall put the effort into moving forward.
3. I hate writing about this in a resolutions post but I will be getting back into the ketogenic lifestyle. It did wonders for me when I started in the summer and with all the craziness of going back to work and being on the road more I let it slip. However, I have invested in some cookbooks and started following some accounts for inspiration and help and I really think I can get back into it again.
4. My marriage really got thrown through the ringer this year. We had lots of challenges and at some points I truly didn't think we would make it through. However we were able to stick it out together and fight for each other and we are doing so much better. As wonderful as it is being new parents, it came with a whole set of challenges and we are learning everyday to work through them as a team instead of alone. I want to continue to have that understanding and work at strengthening our marriage further.
5. Lastly, this little space on the internet here. It will always hold a special place in my heart because some of my hopes, dreams, fears, and uncertainty's are on here. I never regret being open and honest, I like that I am able to look back and know that there are parts of my life that are raw and unfiltered. You may not have noticed a new name for my blog and a new look. I also am hoping to finally get rid of the .blogspot part and get my own domain.
The last few months of 2017 I really started investing in myself and my mental health. I didn't realize how far gone I was until I really started looking in the mirror and not being able to recognize myself. I have slowly been trying to fix that, and I am really happy with where it is going. I have been able to pull back from the things that used to get to me or drag me to a negative space. This includes events and also people, it is always interesting to see how toxic people can be in your life and using the techniques I'm learning I have found that in order for me to continue to have a healthy head space, I need to withdraw from people who are consistently negative and revisit them later.
The last few months of 2017 I really started investing in myself and my mental health. I didn't realize how far gone I was until I really started looking in the mirror and not being able to recognize myself. I have slowly been trying to fix that, and I am really happy with where it is going. I have been able to pull back from the things that used to get to me or drag me to a negative space. This includes events and also people, it is always interesting to see how toxic people can be in your life and using the techniques I'm learning I have found that in order for me to continue to have a healthy head space, I need to withdraw from people who are consistently negative and revisit them later.
2017 was a great year despite all the challenges, I loved celebrating our daughter's first birthday and growing closer to family and friends. I am excited and hopeful for 2018 and everything it holds for myself and my family. I truly hope everyone out there has a safe and happy 2018!
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