TAKING A BREAK

TAKING A BREAK


Social media is both a blessing and a curse. I have been able to follow along and see the journey of those I may not have seen in years and if it wasn't for social media I would have no idea what they were up to, I have been able to update my own family and friends on my life and milestones all at once, and it has also acted as somewhat of a diary. As great as it has been, it has also been detrimental in some ways. 

Social media is all a fugazi, it's not real. It's essentially a highlight reel of what we want people to see, the great moments, the illusion of a white picket fence, but life isn't always the perfect vacation or breakfast in bed. Truth is, these last 6 weeks although they have been special in some ways, I have been struggling a lot. If you open my Instagram you may disagree, you would see ultrasound photos, days with Everly and I playing, and lots of smiles. Our lives have been difficult these last few weeks, we have been getting by day by day and sometimes I see photos and wonder how I was even able to muster up a smile and post it. Everyone goes through difficult times in life and we all deal with it in different ways. This time I truly feel like the best thing is to take a step back and really focus on myself and my family. 

I have never backed away from social media and taken the time to really regroup, the obsession with constantly updating my apps and seeing what's going on gets out of hand some days. It's even harder when you are going through a hard time and you see the lives of others and it makes you jealous. 

However, I feel like this may be just what I need. To be able to separate myself from the outside world and disconnect. I have a lot of healing to do, this summer has not been easy for me and also for members of my family. We have exciting things coming in the next few months, we have babies, weddings, celebrations, and showers and I really want to be in the right headspace to be able to live in the moment and enjoy those around me during these happy times. 

I'm not really sure how long the break will be, I just know that it is something I have been thinking about doing for a while but dang the addiction is real! I feel like these last 6 weeks it has almost distracted me from facing the things that are truly going on, and it's time I really disconnect and face what is going on head on and move forward.

This fall I actually had a couple fun things planned for this blog, I have a series in November I want to do and some fun fall stuff planned as well. So while I am taking a break I want to get ready for that, because in November I want to do a bunch of holiday posts and also put out one blog post a day. It will be a lot of work and a lot of writing but I want to have a bit more variety on here and I am excited for the challenge! 
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11 WEEK BUMPDATE

11 WEEK BUMPDATE


Honestly, this year has been quite the ride. January when I sat down to think about all the things I wanted to accomplish this year, a baby was not on the list and that's because at that point I really did not care to expand our family. I was content (and busy as heck) with Everly, she was entering the terrible two's early it seemed, she was spunky and full of energy and I couldn't imagine adding to this chaotic house. I knew a second baby was something Kyle had been wanting for months, and every season I somehow found an excuse to wait a little longer. 

There were many reasons why I didn't feel like at the beginning of the year I was ready, we went through a lot when we were trying to get pregnant with Everly. It's hard to remember what life was like before she came into our lives, but it was challenging and making myself vulnerable again to situations that are out of my control was really scary. 

In April something changed, I started feeling like something was missing in my life. My job was slowly becoming something that didn't fulfill me the way it used to and seeing Everly interact with kids made me want to give her a sibling of her own to bond with. I figured the process would be long so I decided to get a referral to my OB again so I could have the proper prenatal care I need since I am considered high risk. Kyle and I began no longer preventing and we waited for my August appointment with Dr. Will to start to process. 

With Everly from start to finish it took about 2 years to get pregnant and stay pregnant. So I figured why would this time be any different. May came around and my cycle didn't, so I took a test and to my complete dismay, there were 2 pink lines. I was shocked but also knew that it was go time. I couldn't waste any time and wanted to make sure this little bean would stick so I called my OB's office and he prescribed me Progesterone. My body does not make enough, and this is one of the reasons why I have experienced so many losses in the past. 

I talked a little bit about the complications I have had so far with this pregnancy in my announcement post if you want to read more. I am currently still off of work and trying to rest as much as you can with a toddler and a working husband. Last week we went and got another ultra sound because of the bleeding I have experienced, and seeing this little baby got me really emotional. It looks so comfy and perfect sitting there, and I can't help but feel guilty for not wanting one sooner. You forget how amazing it is creating life (hard and draining, but beautiful). I can't wait to start feeling movement and continuing to grow. I can't believe I am going through the same chapter I went through two years ago with Everly, but I am so excited and hopeful for what is to come. 

How far along? 11 weeks

Total weight gain? No weight gain as of yet thank goodness haha. 

Maternity clothes? Not yet, I wore a maternity dress on the weekend for a bridal shower but that's it so far.

Stretch marks? Yeah, but mostly left over from my pregnancy with Everly.

Sleep? So far so good, I always find it's the bigger I get the more uncomfortable sleep is. 

Best moment this week? Seeing my family (some I haven't seen in years) up north at our annual cousin weekend.

Miss anything? I'm not a huge drinker, but man it blows being the only sober person at a family reunion lol

Movement? Nothing yet!

Food cravings? Orange juice has been something that HAS to be in the house all the time, I have also found myself wanting green beans.

Anything making you feel sick or queasy? Around 4pm every night during this first trimester is when I feel really queasy and sick. So far in this pregnancy I have only thrown up once, I'm not someone who gets morning sickness which I am VERY thankful for lol. 

Showing? It's all bloat, I have felt so incredibly bloated this entire trimester. 

Gender? Not sure yet, but like Everly we will be finding out as soon as humanly possible.

Labor signs? None.

Symptoms? Feeling sick around 4pm, crampy, hungry ALL THE TIME which is something I didn't have with Everly during the first trimester. 

Belly button in or out? In.

Happy or moody most of the time? Kyle would probably say moody haha.

Looking forward to: Finding out the gender

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10 BABY NAMES I LOVE BUT WON'T BE USING

10 BABY NAMES I LOVE BUT WON'T BE USING


I've seen this video floating around on YouTube and I kind of loved the idea of it. Since I'm not a YouTuber, I thought I would make it into a blog post, naming a baby can be pretty difficult sometimes and I think videos/posts like this help with ideas when you just aren't feeling creative. Watching a few of these has given me some inspiration because boy names are probably the hardest for us. We cannot agree on a boy name to save our life! Here I have a list of 5 girl names and 5 boy names I love, but either Kyle and I didn't agree on it or we found a name we like more. 

Girl Names:

1. Harper: This is just one of those names that has always stuck with me but unfortunately there has always been names that I love a little bit more. 

2. Harlow: Harlow was pretty close to being Everly's name actually, and it's still a name I love but Kyle isn't a fan so this one was a no go.

3. Olivia: I have always loved this name but now it is just way too common. 

4. Eloise: This name is so old fashioned sounding and adorable! I love the nickname Ellie to go with it, but I have a close friend who named her daughter Eloise so this one was out!

5. Scarlett: If I didn't already have 2 names that were at the top I think Scarlett would be a serious contender lol. Girl names for me have always been easy to love so it's hard to narrow down a favourite!

Right now, we have 2 names that we LOVE if it is another girl. And I think our plan is to just see what the baby looks like and see if the name fits. I didn't think I would be one of those moms who had a few names and wanted to wait and see what the baby looked like, but I just love both these names so much. If I can't wait until the baby and it is a girl, I may just pick a name out of a hat!

Boy Names: 

1. Oliver : I have always loved this name, I also love the little nickname Ollie. I just think it is the sweetest little boy name! But Kyle hates the name Oliver (mostly because of Oliver from the O.C lol) so that name was out!

2. Benson: This is such a random name lol, but I am obsessed with Law and Order SVU, and Olivia Benson is my favourite character. The more I said this name out loud the more I loved it as a boy's name. Buut like the others, this one was too out there for Kyle so we tossed it. 

3. Liam: This is Kyle's favourite and one he fought really hard for. I just didn't like how common it was, and also it is just too close to our nephew's name so I cut it. 

4. Mason: When I was pregnant with Everly this was a name I for sure thought I wanted. Mason has been one of my favourites for a long time and I thought for sure Kyle would like it too. This one was actually a top contender, but when we found the boy name we have picked out I just loved it way more. 

5. Eli: This was another name I have had in the back of my mind when I was pregnant with Everly and we didn't know what she was yet. 

Boy names have proven to be the toughest for us. When it comes to boy names I like the ones that are a bit more on the unique side, and Kyle likes the ones that are a bit more common. We do have our boy name picked out and it is one we have had for a while (before I became pregnant with baby #2), and I love it so much! It's a good strong name I think. 

I'm always curious when it comes to kid names, are there ones you guys love but know you wouldn't use?!
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