THE LITTLE THINGS
Sunday, 26 February 2017
Being a mom has been one of the most rewarding things I have experienced so far, but it's funny how some days I feel like I can do it all and other days I have crazy mom guilt. It is such a fine line between balancing spending time with the kids and making time for yourself so you can be the best version of yourself FOR your kids! I want to spend every minute with Everly, and I feel so guilty when something takes me away from her. It's challenging to accept that sometimes it is OK to have a night away, that I'm not a bad mom for taking a couple hours to myself because whenever I come back I appreciate the little things that much more! At the end of the day, I have found it hard not to question everything I'm doing as a parent, and it's even harder with things like social media. So many people get mom shamed and it makes me so sad because we are all doing our best. If someone gets a sitter for the night and hangs out with some friends that is ok! If someone needs to take an hour to run some errands and just regroup that's ok too! You're not a bad mom for taking a moment for yourself. It helps me reflect on being a mom and ways I can be better for my daughter and when I come back she gets the very best version of me.
I have been loving watching her learn all of these new things, it feels like everyday she is learning something new. I find myself taking constant videos and photos to document her life, one thing I never had was videos of myself as a baby/kid so I almost feel the need to overcompensate for Everly. I always saw myself as an sentimental person, but ever since I had a baby it has reached a whole new level and I find myself soaking in every little thing she does.
We are almost at half a year old and it feels so bittersweet, on one hand it feels like it has gone by in the blink of an eye and in the other it feels like she has been with us my whole life. I can't believe my maternity leave is half over, knowing I will be going back to work also makes me enjoy the little things a lot more because I know pretty soon I will be apart from her for 8 hours a day.
This weekend we really took it easy, a lot of the time we are out and about but this weekend we dialed it down and spent some home time as a family and it was wonderful. We played on the floor (she is SO close to crawling!), organized the house, and I started making puree for Everly. These are the types of weekends I will always look back on and smile because it is the 4 of us in our element spending time together away from all the craziness.
I hope everyone is able to take time out and enjoy the little things, whatever they may be!