Kyle and I already are coming up on 6 months married in just a few weeks, and I thought I would take this brief free moment I have to reflect a bit on what these last 6 months have been like. It is hard to believe how fast time comes and goes, the day came and went in the blink of an eye as so many told us it would. In these last 6 months I think we have dealt with more bumps in the road than most couples have, but this has just reassured me that I have found the best partner I could have asked for.
01. the good : I think these last few months have shown me what it is like to be someone's for sure forever. It is the best feeling coming home to this person and creating a life with them. So far we have made a lot of choices regarding our future, we have bought our first actual vehicle together as a married couple, we have upgraded our home, and we have purchased a new mattress. All seem like small things, but it feels good to be making progress in getting our home to where we want it to be.
We have also been talking about different ventures together, and creating something great that we can do as a hobby together. We already have our photography business, but in the coming months we have decided to slow down on that and see what else is out there. We loved working with all the people we have and seeing how we can grow a business that started out as just a hobby, but there are so many other things we want to explore.
The best part of these last 6 months has been who I have shared it with, someone who never fails to make me laugh, and someone who has not left my side in the moments when I needed him most. I can't thank the universe enough for allowing such an amazing soul to enter my life, these next 6 months I'm sure will be just as good.
02. the bad : Back in December I wrote about my goals for 2015, and in there one of them was to start a family. Something we both still want, but this last month has shown me that right now it is not our time. At the beginning of February I had found out I was pregnant for the second time, and then just two weeks after finding out I miscarried again. I would not wish this process on anyone, and it is something that I am still emotionally trying to overcome. In the coming months my goal is to figure out if everything is okay with my body, and getting my body fully back to normal. Two miscarriages in a row in the span of 3 and a half months has probably put my body into shock, so as of now I am in no rush to start something that is not meant to be at this point in our lives.
It would be hard on anyone to experience that loss, but for us being newlyweds it hit pretty hard. This was supposed to be a time of celebration, and sometimes it just doesn't work out that way. We both still have our moments, but working through it together is the best thing for us and has made us stronger than ever before. It is interesting to look at wedding pictures because I feel like we had no idea what was coming, but everyone has their journey and I'd like to hope that everything we have gone through in our first six months is leading us somewhere better.
03. the future? : If we have learned anything these last 6 months it would be that there is nothing you could possibly do to predict or plan the future. Someone who is controlling like myself this is a difficult concept to grasp, but I think for the first time in a while I am at peace with that.
As of right now, our goal is to get me graduated in April (SO CLOSE!!!) and find a career that I enjoy. Kyle has been really enjoying what he has been doing with his work, and I know he wants to learn more as time goes on. I think this summer will put us in a better place, and I am hoping that by the end of the summer we can go on a trip together to celebrate 1 year of marriage.
No matter what happens I have to say how happy I am to be married to Kyle, he has shown me a love that I never thought I would be able to experience. Although you don't feel different afterwards, it is a bond that brings us closer together and I am thankful every single day for him (even the days he makes me want to rip my hair out).
